The struggle of being a college senior
How productive are you being? I can't think of many people who don't care about their time. As a college senior, I feel as though I've been pushed to think about the matter more than ever before. I know many can agree that college is nothing short of endless commitments, a lack of sleep and much caffeine, but never have I felt more in need of making every second of the day worthwhile than I have in my final semester.
Sure, I've had four years of group projects and last minute deadline meets, so theoretically, I'm supposed to be cruising through this last stretch with highly refined time management skills. Sadly, that's not the case, thanks to the unique nature of senior year. Basically, I find that I'm trapped between my GPA, and my blank canvas-of-a-career, struggling to give each side everything that I've got. One urges me to read up on complex intellectual theories, while the other beckons me to build relationships with passing professionals who may not even want to hold onto me. It's really felt like a game of tug of war between being a good student and being a responsible adult.
So which comes first?
As summer draws near, I grow inclined to say that my career ranks higher, because quite frankly, graduation isn't just about smiling upon my academic achievements - it also means I'm getting kicked out of my dorm room and knocked off a meal plan. I'm going to need a new place to stay, which requires me to pay rent, and therefore, have an income. There's a demand for me to be practical and profitable with my time, arguably rendering any intellectual enthusiasm I ought to have in the classroom a privilege.
It doesn't mean, however, that I'm choosing to let my grades slip through the cracks. I continue to care deeply about my relationships with professors, and try to be mindful of the time they spend in planning their classes too. Not to mention that my last shot at tweaking my GPA is very much a worthy one, because who wouldn't rather have it raised a tiny bit versus watching it drop significantly.
So if it's a game of tug of war, who wins? Neither. For me, it seems to have been about accepting that neither side will fully give up on your attention; that you therefore have to be strategic with the time that you do find in order to have it work in your favor as much as possible.
Where does your favor lie?